Iam someone who has never had a difficult time with life, I wasnt necessarily born with a silver spoon in my mouth , Iam from a wealthy family, but my father is self made.. I would say my father became "set for life" when I was maybe in my early teens; honestly I wouldn't know. my folks to this day are pretty on the down low with living life simple.. To this day I really have no idea how much sweet down to earth dad is worth. In the world I come from though there are lots of men like that (my dad): "The Good Ol' Boys".
The point of all this is that Iam feeling this notion that I have "superhero" potential though, well everybody does.... everybody can become anything. any time, limited only by the CORE of your body: and what I mean is that if you were born a big boned line backer type, that is your bodytype, and lyou will never look like ME for example who is the exact opposite end of that spectrum of body types (6'7, 185#)-- But I feel that I have SUPER super hero potential... and I only say that because super things come very easy to me! Number one on the top of that list would be discipline with food. Iam easily a 100% raw fooder, and I for the most part have a complete detachment from the struggle with comfort food, food addiction, emotional eating and the like. Iam also completely removed from the "taste" importance of food: meaning that: even if theres a blender full of discusting yuck, If i know it is good for me that is all the sensation my body needs: down it goes, and quite enjoyably I might add !
My struggle I have arrived at is the two main people that live in me: the Artist/musician and the world class athlete. The two have always lived in me from my earliest memories of being aware of being able to make choices about what I like. While to most people they have definitely recognized that Iam the artist/musician the athlete part slips by because Im kind of untypical looking with that crowd of people, although of course I fit right in with the music crowd. Although on realizing I have the body of a 20 year old at 45, that would go "Oh i see" in most of the doubters.
Iam totally on a cross road though with trying to "Get the Balance Right"! I have had a history of being very focused on a single thing at any one given time. Although, even when Im in full athletic mode training, my brain is always in music.... That is not necessarily true the other way around though... When Im being the crazed, mad artist, creative freak when Im on a roll for days workng on something inspirational with music like I was for the last 2 weeks working on "LIVING THE LIFE" Iam not exactly too much ANYWHERE in the athletic world,; I always eat well, that is a given. Let me re-phrase that: "eat well" sounds "just OK", I always eat exceptionally well!
But when Iam working in that frenzied artist/musician world I wake up, drink coffee, smoke weed, work in studio for 6-8 hours, take maybe another weed break,,, maybe some yoga, but unlikely, back to the studio 6- 10 hours with another weed break in their somewhere.... and hopefully no one coming and bothering me: Iam very reclusive when Iam in this mode.... including internet... my email box is backed up for months.... I only answer the phone for my family or Jayson basically.....
I generally do not eat until 1pm, sometimes it can be as late as 6 or 7 pm....
then I got to bed kinda early:
10 or 11 pm--
wake at 6 and start it all again.
Dont clean house except for basics,
kitchens a mess... and that may sound horrible, but being a vegan raw fooder that basically eats zero glycemic food ( fruits, dates, sweet stuff) and mostly super food and sprouts things just dont go bad or smell-- and what looks like a disaster is cleaned up in 15 mins to half and hour: because shit doesnt crust on, unless ur talking hydrated flax seeds that have dried back, then thats fucked, but i never let that happen.
So thats kind of completely the opposite when im athletic mode....
Iam litterally opposite in athletic mode.
Number one
on the top of that list is I dont drink coffee and I dont smoke weed!
hmmm,
for most people and the way they categorize them selves in these modern times these two archetypes of people are rarely in the same person.
But when I was a kid in the 70's it was very much a typical thing with my hero's and California life style...
I was a soccer player and a progressive rock musician.
At the time in the 70's sports and being fit and being aware of human potential was very much a normal thing:
With people like Phil Collins from Genesis, jock rocker Steve Walsh from Kansas, Alan White the drummer for YES sports and athleticism walked right side by side loving explosive progressive rock and what have you.
Steve Walsh the lead singer from Kansas was a total visual of what im talking about ... as he would appear on stage in the, then, at the time fashionable for a jock short short gym shorts (no underwear), hightops, calf high tube socks, and shirtless--- ( for sure a contrast with say how KISS and YES were looking on stage)
Perhaps this consciousness could be further insisted with YES' 1977 release "Going for the One". The album for me was my Sonic Vitamins all the time along with Genesis' "Seconds Out"....
Going for the One was quite amzing with its cover and all, and Im later to realize that Peter Christopherson of COIL had a hand with the engineering of the art when he was with Hipgnosis. The cover is , in hind sight, very homo erotic, although at the time I wasnt thinking that. The cover just somehow suggested this straight up perfect futurism in art and physical well being....
And now I guess I have arrived at the underlying meaning this blog is looking for in me:
PERFECT FUTURISM in the form of balancing explosive creative artistry with accelerated top end PHYSICAL well being.....
That is a spot very much removed from a lot of artists:
the machine that makes their art is given second class citizenship to the art itself....
but then the "machismo" of athleticism is something that really is discusting, and NOT spiritual or evolving at all... its just down right retarded. Being an American that thinks that the average Europeon and Brit is higher evolved then the average American I would tend to think that this machismo in sports is at it's most pathetic with the highly retarded industry and Phenomenon of American football: but NO, that is not exactly true because Brits are just as insanely unevolved with their drunken worship of what the rest of the world calls football.
Just for the record Ive got to say that in the world of lesser evils the Euro and the Brit win out in my world because football players other than a few members of the team are all in my eyes just big fat pigs, and definitely NOT any kind of true pure athlete the way that EVERY member of a soccer team is....
Will you know while Im on this roll, Ive got to talk about Genesis and Phil Collins in the 70's. Phil Collins really did not stay timeless. He is seen in a totally different light now a days because of his solo career, and the direction Genesis went as well with NORMAL commercial success via MTV and the DE-evolved hippies now showing their ugliness as yuppies being fans of the 80'ssounding Genesis.... "Abacab" is such a great song if someone else would have done it.. but its a piece of shit because Genesis did it.... The band that brought us "the Musical Box". "Suppers Ready", Firth of Fifth, Cinema Show, Squonk, the Carpet Crawlers, Robbery Assault and Battery, Dance on a Volcano, Eleventh Earl of Mar was completely stepping back wards delivering something as slightly above trival as their 80's output...
So that was the dumbing down of the genius of Phil Collins from the 70's,,,, oh wait ,, dont forget his rreally equally lame solo career-- with his first record: the one with " I can feel it coming in the Air Tonight" it was completely out of place, but all of us hard core Genesis and Phil Collins fans were all: "Its OK, Its Phil" ... after all, not only was Phil in Genesis, but he was also playing Drums in Brand X ( one of the most interesting , ecclectic Jazz ensembles ever) as well playing on Brian Eno Records ..... but NO! we were wrong: Phil was going to evolve for the worst in the 80's, ,, ,,,, Perhaps being played out the worst in an episode of South Park were phol collins appears as an obnoxious asshole with his Grammy in his back pocket...
Well,
in the late 70's Phil and Genesis were the Epitomy in my mind of Artistry and Athleticism... I listened my self to "Dance On a Volcano/ Los Endos" from Seconds Out before every soccer game I played in the late 70's.... Seconds Out was a live album and no where was this Art and Athleticism played out as Genesis LIVE in the late 70's with the dual drumming from Phil Collins and Chester Thompson
Shit, I got a rush of goose bumps just writting that!
the Drum duet live with Phil and Chester in "Los Endos" particularly was a total physical and artistic statement with their precise drumming in that song with each other was litterally "poetry in motion"..
to this day I cant even describe in words how that made and makes me feel.
30 years after the fact it is amazing to get to see the actually footage of them in Paris when the concert was recorded on YOUTUBE
Please Universe: give me the beautiful balance point in these two beautifull energies/archetypes
