Iam NOT me ! ... yet!

A slightly Stream of Conscious Post,

Finding and gathering all my strengths, slow inside not to fast but with steady movement, some days falling back maybe what seems like a lot, but after a huge block of time like a season or something I see Iam steadily moving forward forward all the time.

Hard to say good bye to things that aren't addictions but really are ... Saying goodbye to friends who I thought were good for me but always knocking me down by telling me thats not possible or thats not vegan or that doesn't fit into our group. Hmmm, sometimes the ones that are supposed to be best friends are the worst friends, especially if their to locked into dogma and you met on the grounds of that dogma... Kinda like we are our own worst enemies...

Loyalty, traditions, and nostalgia are sweet things... but sometimes they are being stuck. I was a pure vegan for a lot of years and now Iam mostly, but I eat a some raw meat and sardines and raw free range eggs a little hear and there. My blood type is A+, which means that Iam naturally more of a vegan and quite easily in the world of all that, but Iam 47 now and too much of that has shown signs of aging and depletion which I guess would be no big deal to some because iam still looking really good... I dont want to look like all the people I see that are older vegans, and even raw food vegans, their faces dont like right even though they have no grey hair...

I saw Jameth Sheridan at Raw Spirit Fest 2008, and I was wearing a shirt that immediately helped him to identify that I was not young, "hey your an old guy too" he said, I think I was wearing an old ATARI shirt that I found at a vintage clothing store, I assumed that he was a little bit older than me, well, because he looked a little older than me... A few weeks ago I listened to him on Kevin Gianni's feature speaker show whatever it is called : Roundtable or something, and found out he was 39...

HE is total 100% VEGAN!

I must doing something right ,

well I know Iam,

but I do get down on myself,

They say be nice to yourself, I think Ive been nice to myself for too long or maybe just long enough, because now i think it's time to get tough on myself..

Ive ended all the toxic relationships in my life, well, at least the ones that are obviously toxic:

personal relationship, bad artist friends who seem more like macho jocks more than nurturing beautiful artisans creating beauty; Iam a musician, most musicians are arrogant assholes, I might be too , but at least Iam aware of it...

The other toxic relationships: coffee and all stimulants and marijuana...

oh yea: and as well, also toxic: giving a shit what people think!

Iam gay, I dont associate with gays anymore, it, a lot of times always seems to wind up being about the same thing at some end and you know what I mean... and Im talking about same sex men, not women; lesbians are awesome! Iam celebate now, I refuse to be defined by my sexuality...

Iam celebate now, so Iam nothing as far as being gay hetro or bi anymore...

Iam celebate because it is said that when you shut down that flow of energy it turns into creative energy... and that is what i need...

John Frusciante from the Red Hot Chilli Peppers is celebate after years of excessively tasting everything that is bad and desensitizing on every level from the one pure thing that makes us a unique from animals... He is mad creative artist on every level... !

That is what I want !

Too much in our culture is defined by sex... god damn, I dont need that input anymore...

I have almost died, and I have almost got myself lost in a world of over-stimulation. Too many distractions, too many cellphones, too numbing, too much pay TV, too much YOUTUBE, way too dilluted, too much power, too much corruption corporation disguising itself as important shit.

Every tarot card, every oracle card, every psychic , every dream I have tells me it is music, music, music that Iam supposed to do... I do it all the time, but Iam scared, or I was scared...

I want to stop being stuck, I want to stop being dilluted, iam going into hiding because my energy, creativity and uniqueness is too attractive to too many people...

It is easy to get trapped i guess because i want an audience to make sure it is all real I guess...

But not that kind of audience, enlightened people always go and live in caves and do things alone; holy fuck, god made me this way for a reason, just because there is no one else like me does not mean Iam ldoing the wrong thing, I dont feel that way,

but sometimes too many people look at me weird

and they say I am too extreme..

a psychic yesterday told me PEOPLE dont get US...

hmm, she put me in the same category as her...

I prefer to be a solo musician and I like to play alone on stage with a guitar and a ton of synthesizers,

and I consider myself a musical channel, or better yet: a sonic channel...

So I guess Iam on the level with a psychic in that sense...

Well,

actually,

I saw 3 psychics yesterday, and I got a massage at a psychic fair here in my hometown, They (the psychics) all pretty well said the same thing:

music, music, music

and that the gold is right around the corner..

OK, yea I know my shit rules,

but I totally hate everything about what it takes to be successful in music except the music; my music is gold, but my skills with the business are horrid...

and probably the worst thing is that MY music fits in no box,

and it is really not entertainment,

it is art!

People use music and art like a whore these days, it is cheap entertainment to distract them from the beautiful things they really should be doing, like sending love, or going to an art gallery or appreciating life and nature.....

So one of the psychics I saw was a past life "seer":

Ive been here a long long time...

Ramtha says that old souls are bums, because they dont care, because nothing makes any difference because nothing really does make a difference, you just do it again if it doesn't turn out right...

money, sex relationships, career

all that shit is crap, who cares

YEA, thats definitely what I think!

all I care about is beauty

I like to help people too, Im very inspired in that , which is an easy and fun distraction for me, because I can certainly get a big audience doing that,

I think my wellness blogs on youtube have gotten me more attention than my music ever,

but then again, I did my wellness blogs on youtube purely from my heart, and really just kind of as notes to myself, too mark time...

just like all my tattoos

Im going to hit the ground running,

I have been today ....

This is my last life and I need to be amazing and change the world!

Truth Calkins told me to back off on the urgency of my creativity and allow my JING to rebuild.... and me creativity would eventually be like 15 year olds again

I thought that was going to take a year for me to feel that... but it is already budding....

Iam doing things with nutrition now that I thought a rawfoodist shouldn't do...

Im a raw Omnivore now...

and I go against what all the mainstram raw food vegans do:

like the Boutenko's say we dont need supplements...

well,

if your extreme like me,

and you want to be 15 at 47: WE DO!

It is NOT the Garden of Eden Here...

the Planet is dying, and so is the constitution of the human being...

My friend Laura saw Donna Gates at a weekend seminar:

and Donna said not to worry about over population because humans wont be able to breed anymore pretty soon anyway....

our constitution is completely failing....

There was a study a while ago with cats were they sort of starved the cats of a proper diet,

you know,

kinda like us ( collectively as humans, not me , and some of us others)

but after 4 generations they could not reproduce, and if they did they were complete mutations....

Hey

guess what ?

we are four generations on of foolish lifestyle away from the earth mother

eating our shit laboratory food (again, not ME, and a few of us others)

but here's the time line, OK ( with my own birth as a marker):

I was born in 1963, my parents were the first generation to start eating shit in the 50's although they probably ate right when they were early on,

their parents were the first generation closest to the earth, and eating WHOLE FOOD, working backwards...

So all of us born in the late 50s, early sixties are generation 1 eating crap,

Since i didn't have kids, Im going to switch to my brother's lineage (who is 2 years younger than me) to follow the time line,

his kids were born in the 80's ( Gen 2)

His kids are having kids now (Gen 3)

Next one after that, is dead end!

Our topsoils are depleted

No minerals.....

Our bodies need amino acids and minerals and fats...

The Organic food your buying,

while yes it is free of what shouldnt be there anyway,

it has no minerals,

because being organically labeled does not require that it be frown in proper mineral rich soil...

So it's crazy to think we dont need supplements....

because mineral ARE NOT in the food !

Isn't it kinda ( totally) AMAZING that we label food with a special label like "ORGANIC", when it is the "conventional" food that should labeled:

CONTAINS PESTICIDES !

I guess thats kinda like calling "cow" beef, just sounds better , Aye!

or like the early McDonalds Scam advertising of saying the hamburgers grow in a hamburger patch....

yea but Im not a Nazi Vegan either

so dont think Im saying that Vegan is the only way

and why is everything all or nothing in our culture?

We need a little bit of animal protein,

there no way around that

why Im I writing this post when I should be working on my music

who cares....?

yea

Im just trying to write a little everyday to get in touch with myself deeper

Today , my first official day past the start of new routines, If I can do one day (yesterday) the rest will follow if my aim is true. It is true, I seek longevity and radiant health on every level. I have a great teacher: Truth Calkins! It is amazing how parallel our existence has been since childhood: so many similarities which I feel will give me "the edge" to do what he has done... I had a childhood and teenage years of pure innocence and creativity: I did what I want, when I wanted. I was not pushed in any way manner shape or form to do anything. I did what I wanted in terms of academic achievment, I was not pushed in any way,,, all i was expected to get for grade points was C by my folks, and even if I pulled a D, there was really not a lot of fuss: perhaps a talking to the night of the arrival of the report card. I was a loner as a boy, and I liked it! It did not do any damage to me, it was a good thing...

The reason I mention this thing about being brought up with all this freedom and creativity is because after being around lots of people now who are into this wellness thing as well as a lot of completely sick people that just hit a wall, they cant do it. I have a lot of freedom in my head. And after studying "The White Book" by Ramtha I realize that most people are not limitless in the way they think; I believe immortality is a totally attainable goal, I believe that being ageless is totally possible... most people are taught to fear at an early age.... and taught to believe that at certain ages things should happen and we just have to accept them. I believe that most of these thing I personally consider negatives are put into us by our parents at an early age... and in the case of some I believe that has been put into us by society, and for some people and their lineage I believe it has become a part of their constitution, bred into their genetic from a long time ago. I believe I can theorize this in the model of my own family in the sense that myself and my brother and sister were all adopted; we were all brought up exactly the same yet my brother and sister do not enjoy the same sense of freedom and limitless that I do. My sister lives in complete and constant anxiety and fear... and my brother is just plain negative... If you are reading this and you find yourself to be in this negative category I speak of have no fear, for Chinese herbalism can change all of that for you, although hopefully you are not too locked into western dogmatic medical thinking, or worse yet: American medical thinking...

and hopefully you are also not to locked into religious dogma, I personally am an over the top spiritual person! I accept the teachings of pretty much all systems, but one must realize , especially in the case of Christainity that that system has been quite fucked with, tainted and edited by man... In case you dont know there are 900 versions of "the bible" on the planet... Sadly, the ones that we read as Americans ( and while I dont know for sure Im assuming most Europeans as well) have the 6th, 7th, 8th, 9th and 10th Book of moses completely removed, as well as the book of Enoch, which in my mind, as little as I have learned about it, on the surface appears to be quite important; In the year that come I will be delving into this subject rather extensively... I have in "lay-away" at the local new age book store a text called: "The Other Bible"...

This is quite a lengthy digression from my point(s) I wanted to come to in this blog, but it seems quite important as Iam disecting some of these issues in the form of print... I consider myself christain because Iam a follower of Christ as well as the Jewish text, especially because a lot of the Jewish text have "trickle- down" from Eygyptology because the Jews were slaves for the Eygyptians previous to Moses liberating them. The hidden truth with in the ancient Eygyptian civilization I believe is a critical missing link in the truth of what things have gone on on this planet thousands and tens of thousands years ago. Iam also a heavy follower of Asain principles (mainly), as well as Hinduism which was planted in my head when I read "Autobiography of a Yogi" by Pramahansa Yogananda, which I discovered because of the liner notes in my favorite recording of all time: "Tales from Topographic Oceans" by YES.. I should like to point to the bulk of my readers which are probably Christains that on the eve of Jesus' crucifixion he wept in an olive garden/grove... Tell me: Do you think that was fear of dying? No, I dont think so. I say it was because his true message and body of work would be twisted to fuck in the ages to come. I tell you it is sickening to me, the message that modern American fundamentalist Christains have come up with--- I personally dont want anything to do with a god that has the ego of 3 years old human, and all the worst characteristics of humans: jealousy, envy... Please understand that the bible was written by man in a time where monarchy was the standard ruling form of government.. it does not seem like too much of a strain of the intellect that god and images of heaven were based on images of king and queens and their aristocracy. Street of Gold ? come on, that sounds like south Orange County to me... a place i personally stay the fuck away from, well other than Laguna Beach which I can take the toll right into from the Inland Empire and not have to look at even one yuppie pig.

Why am I telling you all this? as eveidence of my point that limits, fear and lies about human potential have been bred into some people lineage back for generations....

If you feel you are one of these people I highly recomend mass quantities of Chinese Tonic Herbs: Reishi, Schizandra, Asparagus Root, Ginseng, Gynostemma Tea, Polygala... that should fix it,,,,

I was addicted to music at a very early age which allowed me to create entirely huge fantasy worlds in my head, which later on in life gave me the ability visualize as well as carry that fanticizing ability into my current time ( 47 years, 2 months, 10 days) which today is currently defined as "the law of attraction"... Definitely the era I grew up in really provided "the right kind" of music for this to flourish: the ecclectic, deep world of art rock, progressive rock, and by the time I was a junior in high school the discovery of Electronic Music and more specifically Komische (cosmic) music out of Germany: all the kinds of music in my records were: Yes, Genesis, Pink Floyd, Klaus Schulze, Tangerine Dream, Ash Ra, Camel, Mahvishnu Orchestra, Gentle Giant etc... I particularly had a strong relationship with Tales From Topographic Oceans by Yes which is a very spiritual record from it's inception, conception, writing, recording and then as well as the finish product and all the "vibe" that surrounded the band at this time: I was a hard core music nerd, and I read all the music magazines at the time: Circus, Cream, although I was no fan of Rolling Stone as it was then and still is now an adversary to anything outside of roots rock and roll.... But the influence of Tales from Topographic Oceans and the politics around YES at the time strongly influenced me to where Iam now. The record was literally my sonic bible: I listened to one side of the record every night in head phones probably every night that I was a teenager, the record was double vinyl with a single 18- 22 minute track on each side. Im pretty sure that this was when my whole visualization process started, was with the catalyst of this profound music...

Iam saying all this now because Iam in a regenerative mode, it is certainly not the first time Ive done this, but this re-start here is the most important, and im pretty sure it will be the most memorable, for it will be the final frontier: I seek to become a modern Daoist Immortalist monk....

I want the unattainable, at least the unattainable in the eyes of the average: Immortality. I have become a huge and devoted follower of Truth Calkins. I started writing this post a few days ago so some time mentions are off by a few days, but as of the writting of this paragraph I have been off all stimulants ( coffee, green tea, CHOCOLATE, even kumbucha because it has a slight bit of caffeine in it) and Iam not smoking marajuana at all anymore, for some of you that is not a big deal, but for me as a musician and an artist those two things WERE creative tools... I took another consultation with Truth Calkins monday before last on the phone. To those of you following my story you know what I have done, for those of you that dont: I will briefly give you the lowdown: I had full blown AIDS in 2001, and in 2007 I decided I wanted to be off meds, I have not taken any meds since June 2009, and as dec 2009 Iam HIV NEGATIVE... this is one hundred percent because of two healers: on the physical Truth Calkins, on the spiritual Nicole Peugault of Quantum Radiance, a theta healer, both reside in Los Angeles... then in May 2010 George Lameraux of Jing Herbs discovered what I had done, and we met and talked outside of Erewhon on the picnic tables for quite some time ( I got a free Traditional Chinese Medicine accessment of my health out of it as well, and surpise, my kidneys and adrenal are strong as hell, but my liver is in trouble, which im sure is from 25 years of toxic relationships I have had as well as all the anger involved, in the understanding of Chinese medicine all the organs are related to the psych in some way: the liver is the seat of the emotions.... If you are curious about all of this I highly recommend Ron Teaguarden's book "The Ancient Wisdom of the Chinese Tonic Herbs" )

BTW, if any of you have seen the LONGEVITY NOW 2 DVD's Iam in them speaking of my achievement to David Wolfe and Dr Mercola

Yea, so I achieved that goal... and Iam in a very elite few of the world have achieved that... I have basically decided to become celebate because of that,,, I cant even date anyone because they dont even believe its true that some one could have full blown AIDS, and now not even be HIV.... But celebacy is great because it is a part of my new mission which Truth calls the way of the Jing Master Druid Immortal. Releasing your seed is your life force and that depletes Jing. Also when you learn to control those urges that energy is transmute to creative energy, my main goal!

According to a lot of people that have viewed my video blogs on youtube (http://youtube.com/liverawkstar) and left comments or sent messages they say Iam too extreme, YES IAM by most peoples standards, but we all have to live the life we are meant to live and be happy... This makes me happy...it truely does, I cannot go back , I want MORE MORE MORE.... and if any of you have met Truth Calkins in person at the Tonic Bar at Erewhon you would know he is truely happy as well...

So I have entered a new phase:

Iam the Jing Master Druid Daoist monk now, according to Truth In this initial phase I need to forget about my creativity for awhile and just cultivate an egoless sublime personality, be quiet amd take it easy, take my herbs, minerals, probiotics amino acids, EON water, vitamins, quality essential fatty acids, do the Tibetain 5 rites 2 times a day, rebound, get an inversion table, walk in nature and in general spend a lot of time in nature. and just be quiet===

In time I will return to the child like realm of endless creativity... and then I can return to my obcessions with art

Second Culture Outward 3

So on Thursaday Jayson and I took a trip to Los Angeles to go see Truth Calkins at the tonic bar at Erehwon,

I could ramble on and on about getting to be a passenger in our  Volkwagon RaBBit with the excellent stereo where I get a chance to listen to music in what I consider to be the best  environment for listening to music: in a car, with excellent stereo system; our RaBBit  only has a factory stereo set up in it , but it is very good..

I have been so incredibly productive creatively in the last several months, and the work is good, but it was/ is getting too easy to create  good music. Iam definitely not complaining. 

In the last year I have created several good titles that are at least 80% done or more:

Jambient Anarchist

Om Studio

Secret Life 

Living the Life

Awaken

Mind into Body

a Beautifull Storm

Elementals

Freq n Soul

Watergarden

Lava Lamp (coming up on 3 versions)...

Switch over to Jing Masters and health food--

So what a great experience to wind up spending some quality time with Truth Calkins- We talked about a lot of stuff and he is, after talking to him for the third time now quite an engaging and really nice person... He served us  up a lot of "freebies": we started with some shots of Cantron, Omica mineral shot,  Spun water....

We ordered thee Jing Master coffee chocolate coffee ice blended: it was completely loaded with like tons medicinal mushrooms, maca, cacao, pumpkin seed oil, eucomia bark, cistanche and it is all Body Ecology Diet so there is zero percent glycemic in it. It is all sweetemed with stevia,  and birch xylitol--

the feeling was pretty amazing after consuming all of that amazing food..

completely in awe of Truth Calkins...

This is the life, using all of these amzing herbs and stuff to completely enhance my creativity to over the top so that its just spilling over like an endless fountain.

 that all was thursday,

I had to talk about that a little bit more.

I made some amazing connections in my  studio being more of a keyboard player jamming to my Lava Lamp framework-- 

I have two versions of Lava Lamp that  are done versions:

one is all sequencer and arpegiator from Z-1 with some minor 309--

thee other version is a version with lots of dialog samples, mainly Truth Calkins talking about chinese herbs.

Yes Iam becoming more of a player:

Keyboards, guitar, vocals--

of course struggling inside myself with some of those elements as they are not very oriented to the typical template of some of the genres I would sell too--

the vocals I am just  going to start trying to work on it more as an instrument I think --- 

although, Iam also  playing with the notion of actually  having a selection of songs that could be performed in a normal setting with an acoustic guitar or a keyboard...

Im feeling a drawing toward all of that

Second Culture Outward 2

I started the day down the hill for some good intropspection on my thoughts about music and  "radiant health". riding in Jaysons car the whole time I got to listen to all my recent work in progress with a good sound system.. 

all my stuff is great!

shorter and longer tracks togeather,

which I suppose in the end is a format i should always stay with--

I really think "the ORB" had the right idea with the layout of their first disc "Adventures Beyond The Ultra World" with the opening in a single track 5 minutes length, and then the songs just start getting longer--

I need to always see it as getting to do my favorite part of the song more often, which is the opening, and a "build"; but, Ive just got to get them going in 2 minutes instead of 12.

Ive fairly well decided to have a new CD that is shorter tracks: 6-8 minutes, and then 2 a litttle longer... (10 -12 minutes)

I figure that is very reasonable, because when u really think about it a lot of/most of  Klaus Schulzes work is brilliant for 12 minutes and starts to lose it after that, only a few exceptions: Bayreuth Return,.......cant really think of more,  .......  although I love that so much (Bayreuth Return) that I especiallylove  the 40 minute verksion of it as the bonus on the re release....

the Orbs UFOrb is brilliant for  song lengths.

I think that in my mind set know i would have even a shorter song on that format---

so I was totally blown away by the sound of my work--

"Grab the First Channel" is brilliant,

"Lava Lamp" seriers t urning out very nicely:

especially with me working on this verasion 3 now taking my time and writing  guitar, and doing some singing...

trying and  enjoying getting into singing--

I can tell you one thing right away and that is that I love  the whole idea of being pioneering with a  singing technique... being laid back a little, melodic, and melodic twist, ,,, Mantric, hypnotic---

but Im also very interested in spoken word again, which Ive made a  huge reattraction too that

Second Culture Out ward part 1

working in this new world--

the awareness of my thoughts:

"the dialog" as Dr David Jubb calls it: 

he says 'that when a person's dialog is completely turned off, that they do not dream"

Im not sure I like that because I like to dream, but that brings on thee conclusive evidence that dreaming during sleep is a healing thing for the brain---

a number of things have risen up lately:

One of the biggest and constant struggles is my music as usual--

for the last 16 years I have been seeing my interest in music as being to the world of instrumentals; and more specifically: basically "synth only" instrumentals--

which I suppose was great 15 years ago, or even just 10 years ago--

but now everybody and their brother who on some level fancies themselves a musician even in the smallest aspect can follow those aspirations--

After acquiring a most important final round of hardware gear, I have come to a point of seeing my sonic pallette as completely limitless from a completely musical point of view--

I realize now that after seeing lyoutube, and everybodies little contribution to their  15 minutes of fame on the musical horizon , I  must break out out of the instrumentals; must break out of the synth only world. As much as I dont want to--- I have the perfect set up for what Ive always wanted: "Berlin School Jesus": Klaus Schulze, Tangerine Dream, Ash Ra, Radio Massacre International.  But that is really no problem, because I am more than capable of being a really creative singer. Back when I formulated my original ideas as Second Culture it was all about INFLUENCE from those "Berlin School" boys... and really my greatest aspiration was massive hybridization.... which at the time I dont think I realized as exactly that.... but Ive arrived at a time with  Second culture being over 25 years old and Im saying to myself :  "Why"

The Second Culture 2008 Winter Solstice Release: SC005

1 -- Mind Into Body

2 -- Living The Life

3 -- Secret Life

4 -- Awaken

5 -- Jambient Anarchist (part 17)

6 -- Jambient Anarchist (part 18) 

2008: Easily the greatest time for Second Culture right now  as Ive basically completely out lined a sound that is truely what I have been seeking from day one; For me: I mark day one as existing inside my notebooks in highscool and then with my purchasing  the first Electro harmonix Guitar Syntheizers and started tweaking out my guitar tone.

I have released this Winter Solstice 2008 CD compilation to limited friends essentially as a christmas card; pagan-ly speaking: a winter solstice card!

Other than the "Jambient Anarchist" theme, none of this material is going to appear on the forthcoming commercially manufactured first second culture CD in 10 years. Although I have to reverse that statement a bit as i have come  up with a completely different way that Iam looking at music, distributing music, and especially writing and producing. In this era of downloading music or even NOT downloading music, but just simply high speed access and massvie storage capibility like YOUTUBE have made music instantly accessible--- without a download. I cant tell you how many bands I have read about in fanzines over the years and have only recently just heard them via searches on you tube. "Brainticket" for example would be a wonderfull example of that. My point of reversing my statement  was that fact that I have decided to combat this element of free music, by having so musc music available and in limited forms>

Enough babble on that>

I will provide examples in what you  hold in your hand.

Jambient Anarchist-

a perfect example of what im talking about with this new way of creating music. this particulair version was edited for a performance I did at "The Inland Empire Raw food meet Up" Halloween Party, this version will likely appear under the name "BRAIN" on a forthcoming  CD. This track appears in at least 18 forms since I initialially wrote the sequencer loops in April for performances at "The Bus Stop"..... the final live performance of this track was a summer solstice performance featuring a 4 hour version of  said track by itself.

There are several "jam" studio versions of this track  ..... One of which is likely to appear as the opening  on a further release as "jamming on sunbeams thru trees".  And then there is the "master studio cut": the 80 minute version, which well definitely be released on CD as a single cut, in its entirety of course.....

The first four titles are tracks I have created in the last 75 days; and if you take away "Secret Life" the remaining tracks were written  and recorded since Nov 7--- For me, these tracks are important for me because I feel like they have discovered one of the most important voices I have found since discovering "the Schrittmacher" (analog styled  32 by 16 step sequencer, invented by friends of Klaus Schulze, and sold thru the international "boutique manufactured gear whore crowd; in America it is exclusively distributed by JESUS synth junkie Shawn Clearly and his delicious Analogue Haven). That new voice Ive discovered would be actual song writing, guitar, bass guitar, and my OWN voice.... And the feeling of writing lyrics however i want without thinking about anything but what I want to hear. Lyrics are appearing  in repeating "mantra-like" forms, minimal Haiku styles, metaphysical, "personal politic" politics, and personal expression are central themed  in larger lyrical pieces like "Living the Life"....

The track "Mind into Body" is only 2 days old as iam  writing this.....

I consider these pieces quite possibly just workouts, like lifting weights with my creativity, they my quite possibly never appear again anywhere but here....

This IS a release by the way, although it be limited, it is actually getting numbered in the Second Culture catalog as SC005. 

It is my opinion that the universe has delivered me to this point to become the most enigmatic sonick sculptor EVER... That is why at the super old age that Iam, It is only NOW possible for me to be able to deliver a sonick creative pallete  subtle soft explosive sonick power that will be so insanely encompassing of the whole history of music with the knowledge  only accesibile in this beautiful age of getting to know everything you want, if you want and soaring forward into a world of hybridization that is beyond comprehension as I make all of life filter thru my me and all of MY life as ONE within it: diet, other art forms, seeking expansive creativity from plant alkaloaid longevity enhancing, jing enhancing, ending toxicity, becoming one with the planet, becoming one with the true physiology of man, and finally shunning and ignoring "the death culture" on all levels, and that definitely includes glorifying the dark, deadly.dying and things like downward spirals, depression and finally the ugliest of all: RAPE; as it takes its forms in mental, spiritual, physchological, physical, domestic, ethnic ,  cross species and untimately the blatant and discusting rape of the planet as a whole..   Second Culture is all about upward  expansion, nature, truth, the universe/god. nature magic. dreams. shamanism. PLANTS. health life/healthfood/ raw food/ indigenous/wild/pagan/ modern primitive/Organic/ancient/ alien intervention/ super foods/ super intelligence/new age/ positive/uplifting/aware..... awareness...and lust for life and longevity.....

1> Mind Into Body-

Likely the last piece of music  I will write in 2008......

The title speaks for it self: it is an anthem to keeping the body and mind  as one:

"Do not remove- yourself from your self".....

I seek to explore every element of being healthy on this planet and being healthy TO the planet as well as generating inspiration to others about empower themselves and see the same hapiness and well being that comes from this path.

One thing I have noticed is  that WHAT the majority of people have going on inside them as well as myself is the notion that  the voice in your head is seperate from your body  and further yet is the notion that the body does what it wants even if your mindfull, smarter inside voice knows better. Lack of follow thru with life changing disiplines is a number one example...

Ive been working on trying to be a lead guitarist of the capibility of some of the people I most respect: Manuel Gottsching, Steve Howe, Jerry Garcia, David Gilmour and John Fruscante. of most importance is Manuel Gottsching and the legacy of his legendary release "E2-E4". The guitar solo on this song while it has its flaws, is my best yet.... It is a single take straight thru --

2>  Living The Life

This was my first step in moving outside my typical stuff....

It took me ten days to record this... and it is  of TOTAL demo quality, but it is a complete landmark for me. First landmark is the fact that only the closing section has any synthesizers, and that is just noise, filter and LFO sweeps generated by a droning Pro One... The piece is all guitar, bass, voice,  Quasimidi 309 drummachine, and the Roger Linn Adrenalinn. 

It is lyrically the first time I have written a lot of lyrics that are genuinely personal and not a bunch new age metaphysical crap I usually write.

Its about personal empowerment, and definitely as reaction to the results of prop 8 in California....  Iam the 10%, the minority, fuck the self righteous, ill drowned you in how perverse Iam , and how much I love it and how much it empowers me....

the rewritten lyrics are better than here...

Unfortunately this track  was accidentally deleted in Sonar, but this version here was mastered for my own edification.... It was never intended for anyone to hear but i had to play it for my new musical friend Vincent Libretti a few weeks ago and he was very impressed, saying that it had a rawness like the Velvet Underground and Lou Reed. Im well aware of the legacy of both those entitys, but in reality I have never heard anything other than "Walk on the Wildside"... But the comments Vince made were definitely a reward since what I was really trying to reflect the work of one my new musical heros THIGHPAULSANDRA,  more specifically the track on his first release "I, Thighpaulsandra": "Michel Publicity Window"

3>  SECRET LIFE

I wrote this specifically to play at the Inland Empire Raw Foods Meet up group that I played at on Oct 25.

It was specifically written to include samples of lectures  from raw good gurus : David Wolfe, Juliano, and Gabriel Cousens...

I also sampled myself by including a sample from "Indigenous Flower" from my second CD that also has a sample in it of Alan Watts.... A sample of a sample :-)

Iam very proud of this piece  as it reminds of the ORB, especially with the lengthy closing sample of David Wolfe....

At it's grooviest it sounds like Depeche Mode jamming with the Orb with the beautifull step filtered step sequence coming from the Scrittmacher and Waldorf Q that appears throughout the piece---  

4> Awaken

very demo like quality...

Created in one evening;  I did it after "Living The Life" and realized that my  success' on it were not an accident...

Manatra like vocals, that were first take improvisation like one of my major vocalist inspirations Ricardo Acevedo who appeared on the first Second Culture CD...

The minimal preset beat from the Adrenalinn at the lengthy outro filtered and tweaked ebbing and flowing totally remind me, again, of the ORB on their "Orbus Terranum"..... One of my greatest unsung heros in my list of influences is without a doubt Kris Weston ("Thrash") of the ORB who was the (secret,unknown) mastermind behind the ORB's best releases (UFOrb, Pomme Fritz, and especially the holy grail of inventive electronica Orbus Terranum)... Awaken is definitely dedicated to Kris...

WOOF ! Steve Walsh on stage with Kansas in the 70's in a soccer uniform

So Im headed down this road of being that very explosive artist musician, and balancing that with hard core athleticism...  

In my blog before I talk about some of the jock rockers from the 70's. I did a Google image search hoping to find some of the pics of Steve Walsh from Kansas shirtless in those gym shorts he always wore that I saw in some issues of Circus magazine back in the 70's. God some of these boys dont age well...

Man I forgot how great some of those old Kansas tunes are: lot of great stuff on Youtube.....  

Man oh man, the violin, my ears weren't as sophisticated as they are now: Bloody freakin amazing. I think Styx tends to get the pnod is great american progressive rock band of the 70's,uh, after my little adventure lookin around for sexy pics of Steve Walsh and re-listening to Kansas, lets just say as soon as get the $$, Im going to purchase "Leftoverture" and "Point of No Return" as soon as possible...

Oh and so the yummy pic above is Steve Walsh at a beautiful stack of 70's keyboards, looks like n actual Grand Piano on the bottom: man, the 70's  were great for things like that.... nobody tours with a grand piano anymore.... 

yea ,,,  Stevie in a 70's Addidas soccer uniform. Holy Crap I totally forgot how much I totally dug those Adidas soccer shorts back then, I must have had a million pairs of them... They had a nice little inner brief lining built in them... And that was great for guys like me that only wear boxers, because short style was so short in the 70's if you wore boxers they hung below, which was considered "ungentlemanly dress" if you had a strict soccer ref... so I loved that those Adidas shorts allowed me to not have to wear breifs or a jock...  I just  freeballed because of the inner lining.....

Yea  and Id guess its pretty obvious Steve is freeballin in the pic...... Nice fuckin ass...woof !

Bravo Progressive Rock and love of athleticism in the 70s

the lyrics to Going for the One  by YES: